“Lord God, so much love, help me choose!”
While lying in bed I wondered about the God who created this world. What did this God expect for us to do with our lives after being damaged by the adults around us? I wasn’t the only one hurt by Bruce. Mark and Dennis had suffered also only they both fled to avoid the pain, but I was still there. Trapped during the horrible wake of what Bruce created.
What did this God expect me to do? Run away, too? All of this just when I was finally getting a chance to know my mother and real father, why?
As much as I hated it, I felt myself becoming angry with God.
“Leona, Mark wants to talk to you, hurry up he has a class to get to soon!” yelled Mom.
“Here I come,” I yelled down the hall, jumping out of bed.
“Mark, what’s up? You’re still coming home, aren’t you?” I asked when I took the phone from Mom.
“Calm down, sis. I’ll be there.”
“You better,” I laughed. “So, what’s up?”
“I can sense something is wrong, Leona. What’s going on with you?”
My face grew hot. “What are you talking about Mark? I’m fine.”
“No, you’re not. I know what’s going on.”
I didn’t want to say anything, but he was starting to freak me out.
“Mark, knock it off. What are you talking about?”
He let out a sigh. “I don’t want you to be angry with God,” he finally said.
My mouth fell open with shock. “How did you know? I didn’t tell anybody.”
“You told God. Now just listen to me for a minute. One day you will understand. When we entered this world, we entered a pre-existing twilight zone. Duality rules here. If you don’t remember anything else, remember this; God is our true Father, and this is all that really matters.”
“Now you sound like the Mark I know and love,” I said with a smile on my face.
“You should feel stronger. In fact, our whole family should feel stronger. This is what happens when a link is empowered with truth.”
“Is it because we’re connected?” I asked.
“Exactly, we make each other weak or strong whether we know it or not. God is with us all the time. We can’t be disconnected from Him. Whether we acknowledge Him or not, God owns us.”
“So, you’re saying no matter what happens to us, our connection with God keeps us heading right into His plan for our lives?”
“Exactly, wow we feel and think about our lives doesn’t matter. God sees His plan and He doesn’t deviate from it for anybody. To God, everything is on course. Girl, you got me running my mouth. Let me get off this phone. I’ll see you soon.”
“Love you, Mark!”
While lying in bed I wondered about the God who created this world. What did this God expect for us to do with our lives after being damaged by the adults around us? I wasn’t the only one hurt by Bruce. Mark and Dennis had suffered also only they both fled to avoid the pain, but I was still there. Trapped during the horrible wake of what Bruce created.
What did this God expect me to do? Run away, too? All of this just when I was finally getting a chance to know my mother and real father, why?
As much as I hated it, I felt myself becoming angry with God.
“Leona, Mark wants to talk to you, hurry up he has a class to get to soon!” yelled Mom.
“Here I come,” I yelled down the hall, jumping out of bed.
“Mark, what’s up? You’re still coming home, aren’t you?” I asked when I took the phone from Mom.
“Calm down, sis. I’ll be there.”
“You better,” I laughed. “So, what’s up?”
“I can sense something is wrong, Leona. What’s going on with you?”
My face grew hot. “What are you talking about Mark? I’m fine.”
“No, you’re not. I know what’s going on.”
I didn’t want to say anything, but he was starting to freak me out.
“Mark, knock it off. What are you talking about?”
He let out a sigh. “I don’t want you to be angry with God,” he finally said.
My mouth fell open with shock. “How did you know? I didn’t tell anybody.”
“You told God. Now just listen to me for a minute. One day you will understand. When we entered this world, we entered a pre-existing twilight zone. Duality rules here. If you don’t remember anything else, remember this; God is our true Father, and this is all that really matters.”
“Now you sound like the Mark I know and love,” I said with a smile on my face.
“You should feel stronger. In fact, our whole family should feel stronger. This is what happens when a link is empowered with truth.”
“Is it because we’re connected?” I asked.
“Exactly, we make each other weak or strong whether we know it or not. God is with us all the time. We can’t be disconnected from Him. Whether we acknowledge Him or not, God owns us.”
“So, you’re saying no matter what happens to us, our connection with God keeps us heading right into His plan for our lives?”
“Exactly, wow we feel and think about our lives doesn’t matter. God sees His plan and He doesn’t deviate from it for anybody. To God, everything is on course. Girl, you got me running my mouth. Let me get off this phone. I’ll see you soon.”
“Love you, Mark!”
( Continued… )
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